Maybe I Just Feel Too Much

It’s 2AM thought time again. Not exactly a full-blown meltdown, not exactly peace either.....where your brain won’t shut up and your heart’s doing a whole concert on its own.

So here’s a random thought: Maybe I feel too much.

Not in a pretty way. But in the “overthink every tone in a text message” kind of way. In the “someone looked at me weird and now I’m spiraling” kind of way. I hold on to things that don’t even matter to others, and somehow they end up mattering too much to me.

I get attached too quickly. I care when I shouldn’t. I forgive when I shouldn't. I expect...even when I know better. And when things don’t go as I hoped, I tell myself I’m being dramatic. I hate that word. But sometimes, I believe it.

I laugh around people, I seem chill, but deep down I’m just scanning for signs ........... “Did I annoy them?”, “Are they bored of me?”, “Did I text too much?”, “Do they even like me the same way I like them?” It’s exhausting being stuck in your own head all the time.

So,I act unbothered. But inside, I’ve already written a whole essay titled ‘What Did I Do Wrong?’:))

And I’m tired.... Tired of feeling like I’m “too much.” Tired of being scared that people will leave the moment they see the real me — the one who feels too deeply, loves too much, and overthinks like it's a full-time job.

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